Feelin Good

Hello Folks:
Hope everyone had as good a weekend as I did. there were a few disappointments but life went on. I did a couple things that help me to stay clean too. One, was going to an AA meeting, (I try hitting these as much as I can) and attending my first AA picnic. As I get to know more people it gets easier to be able to do these things. I'm not much on being involved in these type of things but as i continue on my own personal journey I am finding out that these types of things are actually kind of fun. Being able to be outside with people instead of hiding and being high all the time...WOW..FEELS GREAT!! Please don't get me wrong, it's not easy, all these changes, but after all I've been through it IS a much more sane and easy way of life. I still get all the crazy thoughts of partying and missing my old party friends, but you know what? I've found that I have been given back the friends and my BEST friend I had since I was a child. I no longer have to hide and I have just as much fun with him and his family as ever. I'm so grateful to still have them. After all, I left them, they didn't leave me. I've even got to give him the credit for starting me on this idea with Blogging. Being able to put this out there for anyone to read actually make me feel good about myself and if it can actually help someone in need, that's just a bonus. I have tons more to say but for now I must get ready to be responsible and go to work so I hope everyone that reads this has a great dat and continues staying clean..."Recovering" Ron

Finally Friday

What's Up People;
What a week it's been for me. I hope everyone else is doing well. You know they tell you when you start your journey of clean living at meetings such as NA, AA, that it is a simple program and it is, but in the same sense, it is a lot of hard work on your/my part. I have a lot of trying times but by following all the suggestions, I get through. One VERY important thing that I have learned is to ask for help when I get too caught up in things. It's not the easiest thing to do at first but once you start doing it you'll learn how to handle things and situations on your own and it's no disgrace asking for help. After all once you realize that every time you tried to fix things your way, where did you end up? I don't know about you , but for myself I always ended up worse than before and now my own consequences are way to great for me not be able to ask for help. So for today I just want to get through the day of work and look forward to having the weekend off. So until next post I hope that if anyone has questions about their recovery or just want to talk, just leave a comment or Email me. I check my site pretty regularly. For now have a great and sobering day..."recovering" Ron

Tryin to keep up

Hello folks;
Hope everyone is doing well. I myself am doin OK but it has been a couple of trying days. The last 2 days especially were stressful for me. With all the bullshit I deal with at my job plus the other things in my life I had to step back and take a look at it all. Most of the stuff are things of my own making but this is one of the ways I have to learn to deal with life. It pisses me off that something as simple as life is something I must learn to deal with, BUT it always seems that once I do things fall into place.The biggest thing is that I'm not running away from it anymore and just making it worse by drinking and drugging and hiding. Believe me, that never worked and only created a whole lot of chaos in my life. I hate it but my life is much more sane now and I can sit in my own house, watch TV and pretty much have a full life instead of living behind bars having to listen to all the #@*&^!# guards telling me what and how to do it. As I continue to move forward I will get into more about a program that I work daily and how I learned it but for now I must get ready for work as much as I hate it. I hope ya'll have a great day until I get back again. Stay clean....."Recovering" Ron

Just another day

Good afternoon or whatever time it is;
Today is just another day that I need to get through all of life's trials and tribulations without using. For the most part I feel pretty positive but who knows what will happen throughout the day. The one thing I do know is I have the "tools" to use if something does comes up. By that I mean knowing how to handle any situation that would arise. The BIGGEST part is to just do it!. I've been through all the training enough times to know this BUT the hardest part for me is DOING IT!!! Believe me, I've had to suffer the consequences to many times not to know, but it still is hard. I do find that when I listen and do the right things my life is so much EASIER and HAPPIER. For example just having to go to work everyday at a job that I don't like at all, SUCKS big time but then again after losing all the good jobs because of all the dumb shit I did, well it's pretty humbling. So I do it, not because I like it but rather because I have to if I want to get anywhere in life like normal people do.
So just for today I will keep on moving forward and deal with life "One day at time". As I've stated in earlier posts I will continue to keep up with this project for one, because it helps me feel good about myself, and two, just maybe I can help someone going through the same thing or by not making the same mistakes I did. In closing I hope you all can have a great and clean day. Till next post...."Recovering" Ron

Still working on it

How's it goin folks,
Things are going pretty OK for me but there are times when I wonder if it's all worth it but then the day comes to an end and I realize that I made it through another day FREE & CLEAN. Yesterday actually marked 150 Days clean and thats with total abstinence. Thats triple anything I've ever done before. I do it by living the "one day at a time" method. It took me a long time to learn and understand this silly slogan but once I figured it out, WOW. It truly means what it says. Please don't think this is all I do though. There are many other things that I have to do for this to work including working an HONEST program. There are a lot of other things I've learned and do which I will get into in more detail as I get moving on this project, but for now I feel great and am living proof that you beat this if you really have your mind set, so for now have a great and clean day until I get back with more. Remember, anyone that would like to email me us the address in my 1st posting......L8R "Recovering" Ron

Just Getting Started

To anyone getting here at this page from June 14, 2008, I am just getting started on this and it's all very new to me, so please bare with me. For now if anyone would need immediate attention, please feel free to Email me at "recoveringron@gmail.com". I will be updating as I learn more so until next posting have a nice and clean day;-]