Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays everyone. Here's a little something on my my holidays and how I'm handling them clean and sober....Ron

Finished My Stepwork But Never Done

Hello Everyone; Hope your all doin good. This video is on how I was feeling after I finished my Step workbook with my sponsor. Enjoy and see you soon... "recovering' Ron

"Recovering"Ron's Thanksgiving Cheer

Hello Everyone; I hope your all doing well. This is a short video on the volunteer work I do and the people that help. We were getting ready for the Thanksgiving rush and still having a good time. It really is a good feeling just giving my time and knowing that maybe I made someone's Thanksgiving a little brighter. Enjoy and be back soon.....Ron

It's GREAT To Be Alive...

Just something to put out on how my life is goin after I lost my job. I'm still clean and even happy to be alive. That job was just bringing me down but now I've got to tighten the old belt and get a job. I totally believe that something will happen when it's my time, I just hope it's soon. Have a good one.."recovering" Ron

I Got Canned!!!

Hey Folks; Sorry it's been awhile but i had some computer problems and some other things come up but I'm back and still clean even after having some really crappy days and on top of that I got fired. I'll survive though, so if interested, please enjoy this short video on how I'm dealing with this.... Have a good 1 and see ya soon. "Recovering" Ron

CRASHED!!!

Hello everyone and Happy Thanksgiving. This video is on how going back to a job I despise affected me in so many ways but I managed to stay clean another day with the help of my program and everyone involved in it. It really does WORK!!! Have a GR8T one and enjoy....."recovering"Ron

Recovery Has Been STRONG!!!

Hello my Peeps; I'm just messin around. How's everyone doin. I hope well. As for me, I've had a fantastic week that you will see in my video. I hope and pray that it will always be like this but I also know and expect some hard time which I will deal with when they arise. For now though I'm just going to enjoy this ride. Take care all of you and stay clean and enjoy....Peace

Good with the BAD!!!

A video on dealing with my good and bad days. Hope maybe it can help someone going through the same dumb shit I am. Enjoy & Take care.... "recovering" Ron

Being Clean is GOOOOD!!!

Hi Everybody; I pray your all doing well on your own recovery if that is the choice you've made. If not and your just viewing to try and find some truth to you own problems, I'm hoping that this little video may help you in making your decision. It's all up to you. I personally would have it NO OTHER WAY. I hope everyone will enjoy me sharing my journey and maybe share your's with me. Take care and stay clean. "recovering" Ron

A Week L8R

Hey Folks; After having a not so great week, I thought it was time to get my thoughts posted so you know I'm still hangin in there. To me, I was starting to isolate in my own misery, which wasn't really a threat to my recovery, but in the same since I know this is what I should NOT do, so here's a little something about me and how I 'm dealing with it. Hope everyone has a clean and great weekend and enjoy this video. Peace..."recovering" Ron P.S. Happy Halloween

Anniversary

Good Evening People; I made a little clip here for everyone on how my recovery has been going and celebrating my 9 months clean anniversary. Hope you all enjoy and stay clean. Have a GR8 weekend everyone..."Recovering" Ron

Volunteering Works for Me

Hello Everyone; Just wanted to let you all know that I'm still working on my recovery every day using all suggestions that are thrown my way. So far it's the only way to go...Have a good 1. Ron

Just One of Those Days

What's up Everyone; Just felt like making a video might help me get out of this funk I'm in. Have a Good 1 Ron

An Early Start to My Day

Good Morning Everyone; Today was a day that I was looking forward too so I ended up getting up early and thought, why not do a quick post on my day starting out. Well I did and here you go. Have a GREAT DAY and stay clean!!! "recovering" Ron

The day after

Hi everyone; I hope you'all are doing well. I just thought I'd put something up as a reponse to last nights posting to let you know how my next day went so hope you enjoy this and plenty more too come. Have a good night and see ya soon. "Recovering" Ron

Freaked OUT!!!

A video no how I felt after my parole officers visited me for the first time and searched the house. Nothing to hide but still FREAKED THE HELL OUT OF ME!!!!!! Stay Clean "recovering" Ron

It's been a long time

Hey Everybody, I know it's been quite awhile since I've done anything on here so watch and I'll give a little description of where I've been hiding. Hope you'll enjoy this and hopefully be back soon.....L8R "recovering" Ron

Still High on My Recovery

Good Afternoon; Just wanted to post a blog video because it makes me feel good so I hope you all have a great day and ejoy the following. Bye "recovering" Ron

A "5 Star" Day

God Evening Everyone; I'm trying something a little different tonight. This video was done at the end of my day which can reflect on the entire day before going to bed. I can tell you what the day was filled with and it just so happens that today was one of those perfect days as far as I'm concerned. Believe me , thier not all this way BUT the are all clean days which in my mind makes them worth while. So pleez enjoy it and I hope it can put some perspective in someone's eye's that may just need a lift. Have a great night and hopefully see you again tomorrow. Peace... "recovering" Ron

Recovery x2

Hey folks; I hope everyone is doing well. I, myself am doing especially fine. I'm off work because of my surgery which means I have a lot of time to get back into this stuff plus my step work that I do. That in itself has got me on a high that is a really good fealing. I really do treasure my recovery so here's another little video on what I'm up to and I hope you all enjoy it. Have a great day and I hopefully can do another one tomorrow. Take care and stay CLEAN...."recovering" Ron

I'm back and still kickin

Hey Everybody; I know it's been a while since I've posted anything, but I'm still alive and sober. I hpoe is just as well and here's a little video on whats been up in my life and how i've been doin. Enjoy and will be back soon. PEACE

Good to be back

Good morning everyone; Here's another short video on how my recovery is going and how I live my life on a daily basis without drugs or alcohol. I'm grateful everyday for my sobriety and I want nothing more than continue on this journey "One Day At A Time". Best wishes to everyone and hope you enjoy this, or maybe it can even help someone out. Please feel free to comment..
"Recovering' Ron

My Cat's & My Recovery

Hello Everyone; Here's a short video intoducing you to my cats which are a very big part of my recovery and what I've been up too. Hope you all enjoy this and will be back soon. Take Care

Hello Everyone

Sorry it's been so long but here's a little something I was going through the last week and a half and also a thanks to all the people who have commented to me through youtube. It was the best therapy for me when I read them. THANKS SO MUCH. You all have a great day and I WILL be doing more. "Recovering" Ron

feelin free and clean

Hey Everyone
Here's the latest and greatest update I have for now. Sorry I haven't posted for awhile but have been extremely busy but I'm not giving up. Sobriety has been great and I hope it is for you as well, so enjoy and be back ASAP. Take care and stay clean.
"Recovering" Ron

The Monday Blues

Good Morning to All;
I hope everyone had a good weekend. I know I did. I'm going to try something here a little different. Right now, instead of writing all this stuff out, I'm going to try and make a video and post it with this so if I get it right you'll see the video to watch and I won't have to spend an hour typing all this.since my typing skills suck. So if it works , GREAT. If not I will write more later. So away I go. Be in touch soon.... "Recovering" Ron

Great day to be clean

Hey folks;
I trust and hope everyone is doing well. After a very horrible beginning of the week, the last two days have been very humbling and good for me. On Tuesday, I woke up with a migraine headache and that was just the start for a bad few days. I don't know if any of you are familiar with those headaches, but when I get one it's usually a few day affair. They just burn me the fuck out. BAD. Friday was the first day that I was feeling back to normal but through it all, I managed to keep my head on straight and stay clean. I mean like there's this one dude at work that just pisses me off to no end, and he managed to get to me when I was feeling like shit. To the point where I'd just like to smash him in the face but I stood my ground, grinned and bared it and only bitched slightly. In the long run it was the best thing I did because instead of flying off the handle and causing more trouble for myself, he was the one in the wrong and I was right. This isn't the first time this has happened but I guess what I'm trying to get at is that by acting like a human being instead of some ragging lunatic, my life is simpler and there are no consequences to face. Hell, if I were to get any kind of new charge, the authorities(as much as I hate to call them that) would send me right back to jail. Just by listening to people at meetings, my sponsor, and using all the things I've learned over the years I am free and cleaned and I had the best Friday and Saturday I could ask for. The were productive both recovery and getting things accomplished around my house wise. I don't know about you but for me at this time in my life, that is very important. Shit, I'm even tryin to quit smoking cigaretts. We'll see how that goes but as for everything else I've got another couple days clean and feel great...So until next time ya'll stay well and take care. Peace "Recovering" Ron

What My Addictions Were..

You know that I've been trying to tell you some of the things I do as a program of recovery but I never got into what my addictions were. I'm actually working on my personal story to post but until then this is just a very brief description of my situations. I began with pot and alcohol while in high school. After graduating I started experimenting with all the other things. first i tried some coke which was awesome but then I found crank (meth) which was cheaper and lasted much longer. Used this for years until I ended up switching to coke. This became my drug of choice. For years it was a weekend thing but as time went on it became daily and got much more involved. All during this time I also tried all the other things such as, all kinds of pills, acid, heroin, crack, and pretty much anything that was new but I always ended back with the cocaine. Once the coke started getting crappy I went to the crack and was pretty much addicted instantly. I would do it every day, all day. Finally started to have to deal it to support my own habit only becoming my own best customer. Pretty much lost everything I had except my house, and had credit card bills that were all maxed out and were astronomical. This is when I went to my first rehab. I learned a lot about myself and thought I was cured but I was only fooling myself. About a month or so late i ended up going back to the way I was. I lost a great paying job by quitting just to save face and two weeks later, that's when I got busted. Spent 2 weeks in jail and was sentenced to 18 months probation. Well once again I thought I was above evrything and started using the crack again right back where I left off. Had 3 hot piss tests but I ran away to another rehab so I didn't have to go to jail but after being home only a month I got nailed with another hot and off to jail I went. This time I was re-sentenced to 5 to 23 months in jail. Got out after about 100 days because I had some time already served but this is where I realized my life had to change. I really fucking hate being locked up and that pretty much brings us to the present. It's not easy but I've found that my life is WAY better this way than the other life I had. Like I've said before, I'm pretty young in my sobriety and clean time but my life has much more meaning. On the 24th of July I and will actually celebrate 6 months of total abstinence and have no intentions of looking back. So for now, as i stated, this is just a brief history of my downward spiral into addiction. I hope that if you are interested you will read my story when it's complete. I will let everyone know when it's done. Until next post may everyone have a clean a and sober life
Goodnight..... "Recovering" Ron

It's Been A Good Week

Hello Folks;
Hope everyone is doing well. I know that I am. It's been a trying week but I survived. It had its ups and downs but I stayed positive and it was well worth it. Still CLEAN. I guess now is as good a time as ever to start getting into some of the other things I do as my program of recovery. One of the first and most important things I do or use is have a sponsor who has a lot of years sobriety. This is a necessity for me. He's the one I go to when I need help to get through the tough times and ask for help. We get together every Wednesday morning and go over the things that I work on. We use the NA work book which I feel is an awesome way to work the steps. It really helps you to look at yourself and see where you've been. For me, this is the 2nd time I'm starting this work but since I've been to jail, we are working it much slower and I ask many more questions such as the way I feel and the thoughts that I get. He always makes me see the right way to get through but not without thinking it through. Believe me, it's no free ride. When I went to jail, man was he PISSED!!! I'm really just lucky to get him back. No wonder his nickname is "mad dog". I don't blame him for being mad either because he doesn't need to waste his time if I'm just gonna throw it away. One of the things I've learned through all the bullshit is honesty, and also a word he will not let me forget,"CONSEQUENCES". That word is pounded into me and it should be, because my consequences are now to great to fuck it up. I HATE JAIL!!! So for now this is just the tip of the iceberg for how I work my recovery daily. So for now it's getting late for me so I hope to be posting more this week and go more in depth with this. I hope everyone has a good and clean week ahead and talk to you ASAP. L8R. 'Recovering" Ron

Been Awhile

Whasup;
I know it's been awhile since my last post but I'm still goin strong. Just got real busy over the holiday weekend. By the was I hope everyone had a safe and pleasant 4th of July. To tell you the truth, this was my first one's clean in many many years. Believe me when I say that I made it through,it wasn't all candy and roses. All those demons were there wanting me to party, but it's getting much easier to stay on the path I'm on and the next day I can actually realize how easy it was. I pretty much make mountains out of mole hills so to speak. I got things done plus I actually had to work on Saturday which really pissed me off but you know what. It's over now and I survived. Imagine that. Something so simple. Right now I'm working on my personal story to post so that takes a lot of time since I'm just a hunt and peck typer. Hell these post take me a 1/2 hr. to do. Thank God for spell check or you probably wouldn't even understand what I'm typing. So until next post, everyone have a great life and stay clean.
"Recovering" Ron

Test Video

Feelin Good

Hello Folks:
Hope everyone had as good a weekend as I did. there were a few disappointments but life went on. I did a couple things that help me to stay clean too. One, was going to an AA meeting, (I try hitting these as much as I can) and attending my first AA picnic. As I get to know more people it gets easier to be able to do these things. I'm not much on being involved in these type of things but as i continue on my own personal journey I am finding out that these types of things are actually kind of fun. Being able to be outside with people instead of hiding and being high all the time...WOW..FEELS GREAT!! Please don't get me wrong, it's not easy, all these changes, but after all I've been through it IS a much more sane and easy way of life. I still get all the crazy thoughts of partying and missing my old party friends, but you know what? I've found that I have been given back the friends and my BEST friend I had since I was a child. I no longer have to hide and I have just as much fun with him and his family as ever. I'm so grateful to still have them. After all, I left them, they didn't leave me. I've even got to give him the credit for starting me on this idea with Blogging. Being able to put this out there for anyone to read actually make me feel good about myself and if it can actually help someone in need, that's just a bonus. I have tons more to say but for now I must get ready to be responsible and go to work so I hope everyone that reads this has a great dat and continues staying clean..."Recovering" Ron

Finally Friday

What's Up People;
What a week it's been for me. I hope everyone else is doing well. You know they tell you when you start your journey of clean living at meetings such as NA, AA, that it is a simple program and it is, but in the same sense, it is a lot of hard work on your/my part. I have a lot of trying times but by following all the suggestions, I get through. One VERY important thing that I have learned is to ask for help when I get too caught up in things. It's not the easiest thing to do at first but once you start doing it you'll learn how to handle things and situations on your own and it's no disgrace asking for help. After all once you realize that every time you tried to fix things your way, where did you end up? I don't know about you , but for myself I always ended up worse than before and now my own consequences are way to great for me not be able to ask for help. So for today I just want to get through the day of work and look forward to having the weekend off. So until next post I hope that if anyone has questions about their recovery or just want to talk, just leave a comment or Email me. I check my site pretty regularly. For now have a great and sobering day..."recovering" Ron

Tryin to keep up

Hello folks;
Hope everyone is doing well. I myself am doin OK but it has been a couple of trying days. The last 2 days especially were stressful for me. With all the bullshit I deal with at my job plus the other things in my life I had to step back and take a look at it all. Most of the stuff are things of my own making but this is one of the ways I have to learn to deal with life. It pisses me off that something as simple as life is something I must learn to deal with, BUT it always seems that once I do things fall into place.The biggest thing is that I'm not running away from it anymore and just making it worse by drinking and drugging and hiding. Believe me, that never worked and only created a whole lot of chaos in my life. I hate it but my life is much more sane now and I can sit in my own house, watch TV and pretty much have a full life instead of living behind bars having to listen to all the #@*&^!# guards telling me what and how to do it. As I continue to move forward I will get into more about a program that I work daily and how I learned it but for now I must get ready for work as much as I hate it. I hope ya'll have a great day until I get back again. Stay clean....."Recovering" Ron

Just another day

Good afternoon or whatever time it is;
Today is just another day that I need to get through all of life's trials and tribulations without using. For the most part I feel pretty positive but who knows what will happen throughout the day. The one thing I do know is I have the "tools" to use if something does comes up. By that I mean knowing how to handle any situation that would arise. The BIGGEST part is to just do it!. I've been through all the training enough times to know this BUT the hardest part for me is DOING IT!!! Believe me, I've had to suffer the consequences to many times not to know, but it still is hard. I do find that when I listen and do the right things my life is so much EASIER and HAPPIER. For example just having to go to work everyday at a job that I don't like at all, SUCKS big time but then again after losing all the good jobs because of all the dumb shit I did, well it's pretty humbling. So I do it, not because I like it but rather because I have to if I want to get anywhere in life like normal people do.
So just for today I will keep on moving forward and deal with life "One day at time". As I've stated in earlier posts I will continue to keep up with this project for one, because it helps me feel good about myself, and two, just maybe I can help someone going through the same thing or by not making the same mistakes I did. In closing I hope you all can have a great and clean day. Till next post...."Recovering" Ron

Still working on it

How's it goin folks,
Things are going pretty OK for me but there are times when I wonder if it's all worth it but then the day comes to an end and I realize that I made it through another day FREE & CLEAN. Yesterday actually marked 150 Days clean and thats with total abstinence. Thats triple anything I've ever done before. I do it by living the "one day at a time" method. It took me a long time to learn and understand this silly slogan but once I figured it out, WOW. It truly means what it says. Please don't think this is all I do though. There are many other things that I have to do for this to work including working an HONEST program. There are a lot of other things I've learned and do which I will get into in more detail as I get moving on this project, but for now I feel great and am living proof that you beat this if you really have your mind set, so for now have a great and clean day until I get back with more. Remember, anyone that would like to email me us the address in my 1st posting......L8R "Recovering" Ron

Just Getting Started

To anyone getting here at this page from June 14, 2008, I am just getting started on this and it's all very new to me, so please bare with me. For now if anyone would need immediate attention, please feel free to Email me at "recoveringron@gmail.com". I will be updating as I learn more so until next posting have a nice and clean day;-]